Dear Veterans Administration,
I recently called to talk about a matter that is, to me, that is of the utmost importance and my survival depends on the information that I need from you. Instead of the usual droning hold music spattered with apologies from your robot I was met with an unusual option: to make an appointment for a call back. Initially I thought: Hey great, I don’t have to ruin my neck holding onto a phone for an hour. BUT! Your robot proceeded to tell me that the soonest that this could happen was Friday afternoon. It is Wednesday. This is completely unacceptable service.
I am a fucking veteran. My life has been irreversibly altered by the things that I have done for this country. I have been homeless and begging for your help for four years and I did all of it for a few measly dollars to pay for my education that you, the VA, promised me that I would receive. Well the ways that you have made getting this money difficult have been Legion. I feel as if my fight with you has been way grander in scale than any alleged fight I’ve had with Terrorism. But this of all things was too low.
You and the Government took a bunch of little boys and girls and you gave us guns and big scary vehicles and bombs and you let us do what-ever-the-fuck-we-felt-like in another people’s land and you filled our heads with garbage about loyalty, discipline, responsibility, selfless-service, honor, integrity and personal courage yet you, the sole governing force of our survival back here on our own land, can’t even operate a phone line so that we can speak to someone on the same day? Really?
I had to wake up at 4 in the morning for a year straight to work in a prison camp. That is what I did for you. But when I call, when I do get ahold of you, I’m met with aggressively incompetent people who bounce me from phone to phone until usually the call is lost. This is my user review. Fuck you. And fuck this whole country and all the bullshit you gave our generation.
You made so many of us you can’t even handle us and every day another one of us hears that message and says FUCK IT! 18 suicides a day and you bet your fucking ass that that hangs on your head. You have failed us, you have lied to us, you have mismanaged our money, you have complicated our lives, you have given us unnecessary work and you refuse to offer us any real assistance outside of education benefits.
Whenever I do finally get these final 12 months of pay out of you and we’re finally done and you can wash your hands of your petty responsibility you won’t even give a fuck what happens to me. And these are just my grievances with your education system. The disability function that you supposedly fill has strung my life out through a long sickness and anxiety and stupid, misplaced hope for four years now. I shouldn’t have to work so hard for your attention. I have been chronically homeless for all four of those years. I have some pretty serious issues. I deserved attention. Yet it felt as if you, somehow, sadistically enjoyed stringing me along.
I hope that you know that you feel like a monster to this veteran. You have fucked my life up in such magnificent ways and you don’t even know it.
Hatefully,
Christopher Brandon Arendt
The Paper Trail 
i wish it wasn’t true, i wish i could forgive. i wish we didn’t serve. i wish we would have done the smart thing and went to Canada. i have given up on the VA and i accept this country sees me as a burden, a road bump on their way to the mall. i gives a fuck, and i am walking away.
I think we’re in the same spot Brandon. We are probably best to just do it on our own from here on out I think.
My cataracts are bad enough to qualify under Medicare. I’m a diabetic and also have glaucoma. And as many of you know I’ve had open-heart surgery. The eye doctor at JACC claims it’s too early for cataract surgery even though cataracts can make glaucoma worse as pressure begins to build and blindness becomes increasing more probable. He refuses to listen to reason. He also stated, “that has nothing to do with your vision” when I said, “my sugar levels affect my vision from time to time”. Everything he said to me on my last visit is contrary to what other professionals have told me and the research I’ve done. My concerns are heart attack and blindness and ya know, I want to be able to see where I am going to fall.
While the VA does a lot of good, the bureuacracy gets in the way a helluva lot more than it should, especially as we get older. They sometimes put the quality of life at the bottom of the list. I’m not afraid to die and I think most of us old farts feel the same because it’s simply going to happen. But between here and there we want to be able to stay on top of the good things in our lives. Putting off my cataract surgery is going to put a damper on that quality of life.
That being said I’ll be taking responsibility for my quality of life and get it done outside of the VA Health Center. Money out of my pocket.
Stop whining ,I served over 15 years and medically retired.. My va ratings total over 250..( va math 100%) You get out of life what you put into it, stop crying and writing open letters to the va never solved anything…
Vet too: youre a dumb bitch, its easy to say stop whining when you are actually getting your fucking money that you rate dumbass
you’re not a vet –
Medically retired at 15 years = pussed out whiner who couldn’t hack it.
Exactly how much did the VA rate you for your your silicon vaginitis???
Let him vent! Who the hell are are you to judge? This thing is meant to be able to bitch bc we are all so frustrated. I would rather tip my hair out than have to wait in hold again or have a website that’s promited as the key for us go access our own information leads to nothing but dead ends, time outs and more useless informational crap then before. I have gone over a yeah without a primary care physician, just after getting out of 5 years of active army with 2 tours overseas….and they deployed me knowing I had psych crap already, that ultimately led me to being medivaced. I get 30%, I’m unemployed and live next to a drug dealing VETERAN who told me to go shoot myself in the head, and he’s receiving 70% while he sells meth to everyone jn this apartment complex. I just want help and I Fucking want to scream at everyone for giving me their total bs lines. I BSD a receptionist tell me to literally HANG In THERE when I’m talking about having no help…and don’t want to but think I maybe should off myself. I’m STiLL still getting bounced around mental health and currently have allergy meds for panic attacks so bad I can’t function in regular day to day life.
But bc I’m a female, have anxiety, ptsd, adjustment disorder, panic attacks, adjustment and mood issues, an eating disorder, and s long history of emotional abuse as well as sexual trauma..the VA does t have me on a high priority list bc the army didn’t cause my shit. It didn’t help matters for me, but I gave 5 years of my time and service as a medic to them and get ignored and filtered through the system like I’m asking for something completely out of reason. Their tactics work bc after being ignored I feel like I am being unreasonable to expect help… No I’m not the guy who has issues choking out his wife in the middle if th night, but god damn it I wasn’t a fobbit. Convoyed 4-7 times a week in Rc east 08-09. Just want some Fucking assistance. After ridiculous weekend stay T the Phoenix’s VA 5th floor for self checking in for suidcidal tendencies, I was given a gown and I’m gonna kill myself socks and paraded around the waiting room, left standing there scared and embarrassed for over a 1/2 hour while everyone is staring at me. I get admitted, have a 55 year old roommate who’s literally psychotic, and nothing but 4 walls and crazies to hide from over a holiday weekend of not seeing anyone but the homeless guys (very sweet BTW) who were currently living in that part of the 5th floor…was then seen and discharged Monday w in 5 hrs, given temp meds, told to call and make an apt with mental health and no follow up was given for counseling. (This was almost 3 tears ago) now I’m broke, had to drop school bc I couldn’t even handle that…and the crisis line has become one of the few #s I text that actually answers. I dont even feel like a veteran anymore. I don’t look the part, and dont get treated like one. seriously the VA can go fuck itself
Fuck you, You get your benefits and tell those who served honorably then get F’d over after being hurt to STOP WHINING!!! F-you moron.
Fick you. You are a piece of shit. You are not a veteran. Not speaking like that. You must of been finance or jagg huh? Life must be real hard for you now
That’s bullshit. Fuck you. Just because you got what you needed from them doesn’t mean everyone else does.
Go fuck yourself.
Some of us, just as deserving of our benefits as you, have been in the phone for cumulative years at this point with nothing to show for it. Every six months, the VA fucks yo something on their end and takes it out of my pay. When I can’t pay my bills because of it, I try to call the Debt Management center only to be hung up on 45 minutes into a hold.
It must be nice for you to get what you need in a timely manner and in a way dmthatbdoesnt make your life immensely more stressful. Given your advantaged position, the least you could do is have a little sympathy for the millions of vets who get fucked every day.
And, again, fuck you. You’re a fucking prick.
THE VETERANS ADMINISTRATION CAN GO TO HELL!!!
I’m at the V. A. right now (The Brockton Campus) My belongings have been stolen and not a single staff member gives a Dam!
Trying to get out of V.A. Hell!
(Vietnam 67-68)
hey Vet too…….go fuck yourself. You probably fueled a fucking truck on the FOB. I wish you were here with me so I could beat your fucking teeth in. I bet that will solve the problem of you running your fucking mouth.
Shut the fuck up little bit cheaper, you’re just another sheep for this government. You probably sat in the S1 office while you botched away from missions because you didn’t want to miss chow.
I agree with you 100%. The VA medical system is the most disgraceful I have ever been associated with. This includes welfare medical before my disability was approved.
If the public really knew what we deal with, we would receive at least welfare quality medical care.
I have ceased wasting time with unthinking, uncaring, robots that the Kool-Aid.
By the way FUVA is already registered. Damn!
I agree Fuck the VA
I dont give a damn what anyone did. Regardless you signed the contract and the government was supposed to take care of you. I never got rated for the VA because I don’t want hand outs. But, I work with VA work study for my university and have over one hundred hours of unpaid work. So yeah, FUCK YOU VA! Fuck this government. And most importantly FUCK THE United States of Go Fuckyourself!
I wouldn’t be surprised if this site is run by the NSA.
just some weird dude.
Boo Hoo Hoo. Another returning ” Hero” who has undoubtedly claimed he suffers from PTSD, TBI or some other malady that he will then try to get a service connected disability for. News Flash…..You’re NOT a hero for serving unless you have done something truly heroic, not just be in a combat zone. Then come back Stateside and expect everyone to kiss your ass because you were part of OIF/OEF. The WW2 soldiers, they were Hero’s and you rarely hear them whine, not like the current crop of returning Chris Kyle look alike wanna be’s looking for free shit from the VA and ultimately the taxpayer.
Would be interesting to track down these VETS and see how things have been. Good and bad.
I’ve updated this really old blog to represent that while our nation has gone to shit I am actually doing quite well. I love our concern.
FUCK THE GOVERNMENT AND FUCK THE VA!!!!!1
Right on bro!!
I just love the Brotherhood seen here.
Here’s the deal. We fought with honor for a country that has no honor.
Sad but true. The V.A. needs to have it’s teeth kicked into the back of it’s skull.
AFUCKING. MEN
This is The Best! I 110% feel your pain! I hate the VA as well!
I love you baby
Thank you!
Suck it up
I did. Thank you.
Hope things picked up for you.
They wonderfully did. I just came back to this blog and my life has well improved. Thank you so much for your kindness.
This was beautifully written. Thank you. You’re not alone in these feeling brother!